Monday, November 16, 2009

i've move to tumblr.

Posted by `aYmerOn at 3:47 PM

Sunday, August 23, 2009

my people

this was taken few months way back ago when my people and i went for an adventure at Old Changi Hospital. I dont know what's wrong with the camera anyway. The story have been updated if u have been follow up the entries, so here's the pic that i've found.



Nothing much to update, so here are past photos during past events with my people. Last month, we had a BBQ & JULY BABIES celebration.

The cake is soo nice(:

The mens having their talks.

The other side, the kids were having fun. Nice to see them happily playing together(:


the most famous gayboys.

sweet aren't they? haha. of course, these arent real. my people are straight people keh!

ala bedah hai!

going upstairs to take the cake, i guess. so, camwhore a lil(;



Oh yah, we had karaoke session in the Sense room.
Mostly the songs were DANGDUT(: oh iloveit. hee

After so much of our melliflous notes, dancing and all, the cake was about to be cut. So we make our way back to the rest of our people.

usual crazy people
sweet family potrait there, but somethings are much to be focus at. Look at the 2 guys at the back-.-"

same goes to this photo. hahs!


that's about it. it would so much fun if baby's there. u will know why sooner or later;)
love babyron!

Posted by `aYmerOn at 3:52 PM

Saturday, August 22, 2009

i dun nid dramas

i've no idea how to describe my feelings at that point of time. But i knew it was a mixture of happiness and a lil of sadness. I was one freaking happy lil girl(ehem) on 16th Aug at night when baby called. After long freaking daysss of not contacting each other due to his field camp-.-" now i can talk almost everything to him, great.

tears almost rolling down my cheeks. heart was beating like a racehorse upon hearing that melliflous tone. i was at CCK in aunt's house after some rehearsal. i can say field camp wasnt that bad somehow. =p one word, wonderful. now baby's back, okay for few days. ahai!

so i was happy that baby's back and he's fine. hahs. it was just marvellous at that point anyway. so, tend to a lil exagerate u see. well. hahs. it was all smiles afterwards.



after all that happen, i was hoping hard enough. real hard. let that just be between me and GOD. anyway, yesterday, i was on afternoon shift and it was "one-of-a-kind" of tiredness. hahs. but it turned out great when baby came down to NUH all the way from Pasir Ris. freakingly missed him. thanks baby. tiredness were gone in a split second. =p

side track, of course im still unhappy on certain things. anyway, old pictures. u've got to see the difference aye.











if u could notice somethings. (: still not sure? come find me.

oh heaven! it's now fasting month.

things are just average. clueless. too many drama going about all around. FUCK.
now im confuse. plz GOD, let it flow.

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Posted by `aYmerOn at 11:47 AM

Saturday, August 15, 2009

i miss the old times

for once, i felt "emptyness" was filled. but fortunately this is `aYme. rational thinker. ;)


anyway, i had a hard time deciding which to go for today's planning. i wanted to give my support to Falcons which later part i get to know it's the same as last year where we actually just to represent that centre. thanks.
during the freaking old times. with our ex coach and my abah as our current coach.

it's been freaking ages that i ever spent time with them, and thus i thought of coming later in the afternoon. then the weather was a lil biars at that moment. hahs. so i chilled back watching DVD. so thought of meeting superGF but she postponed it. So yeah, all failed. &finally i went down to former school for the band investiture. YELLOW! ;)))
i miss babyboi;(

so, talked to the alumni members whom i've missed them out as well. all thanks to the tight schedule since April. things went as per normal.

and by then i realised i miss out soo many things from soo many people.

and honey, i still do feel restless. with the fucking nightmares. come home quick, please:(

Posted by `aYmerOn at 9:36 PM

Thursday, August 13, 2009

life has to go on

you might think you are one real big fucker being such situation. getting all the things u wanted. being one big fat liar, you're marvellous? oh man c'mon. get a life, you're not living in fantasy. where's your human rights??

i was freaking pissed off this afternoon while waiting for that freaking bus for half an hour. that's abnormal. usually the bus will arrive few mins but i wonder what happened to the driver. so Mai &me reached our ward at 12.56pm, according to my wristwatch. unfortunately, the clock there was 10mins earlier. you're right, my lecturer's face turned red. -.-"

there goes my mood. but yeah, it gets a lil better soon after. just that, baby was missed yet again, each and every time. opposite ward was pathetic having ain and ru zhen only. -.-"

things went fine though. some things are just hard to be explain.

on the way back home, abah called. then it was Isyah doing the talking. missed them too. it's been since we met. so sweet of Isyah.

although u didnt treat me as how you should, but i'm here keeping my words.
i mean it.
i need you.

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Posted by `aYmerOn at 11:03 PM

Tuesday, August 11, 2009

move on

I don't know how special u are but u are one bad influence and annoying shameless person. Sorry.

Friday
Boyfriend fetched after work once he booked out, slacked. Waited for Kak Lydia to fetch him and i went home. Attachment was alright except that i came late for last day-.-" Thanks to Nas & Aisyah for putting in effort to represent us doing "thank you" card although it was last minute. No one wanted to present even our precious leader passed it on to lecturer. Hahs.

Saturday
Unfortunately need to go back to the hospital for replacement due to the MC i took last Monday. Worth it i can say =p Ended about 3pm and shoot off to WM to meet boyfie. Walked till dunno where which then later he accompanied me to my private school. Settled some admin stuff. &oh great, finally, i quited school-.-" but it was silly, cos left only few months. kentot. Had our dinner and went back home.

Sunday
Happy National Day. I didnt celebrate it, at all. Fireworks doesnt seem to please me anymore. Woke up in the morning and shoot off to boyfie's place. Followed kompang to Woodlands and Clementi. Slacked around and went home. Later at night around 9plus, went to A.B's house. Played JENGGA. hahs. it's been ages since i played such game. Then watched Exorcist(?) Emily Rose. Story line was quite slow that i fell asleep halfway. Hahs. The Cave was even more slower -.-" Went home about 3 and by then bf was asleep. arhg.

Monday
Baby booked in :(
Field camp ;-( But it's okay! It's gonna be fine, everything's gonna turn just as smooth(:

Tuesday
New ward. So it was all about orientation yet again for few hours. Then worked as per normal. Thank goodness my AN & SN was great, especially my AN. Today ended at 4pm-.-" then off to meet Pika. Chit chat and shoot off home. Oh! Today there's meeting. Okay, im exhausted.

That was how i spend my days?
&oh how i miss baby. Praying hard that everything's gonna be really fine and he's strong enough to go through those obstacles. Please help, GOD.


Seeing you in such state just makes me feel useless. Cheer up honey.

Posted by `aYmerOn at 7:19 PM

Monday, August 10, 2009

btwn u&me

somethings are just not to be expose. well, i kept too many things within myself to think that i can bear with it but it didnt last any longer until my brain becomes numb. nobody knows. till then i thought of letting it go, but this brain just aren't working. it stopped. i tend to forget what i wanted to say. but this heart has never been stop bleeding.

tolerating such suffers just makes life dull. being blinded by love making oneself feels so stupid. that's the negative side. does love really conquers all? depends on how u wanna think about it but i guess without honesty, sincerity, faith, confidence, it just won't happen. it might not be your fault, and it's always the other party, and vice versa.

so what's the point? i believe in being patience, no matter how worst it's gonna be. but of course! patience has it limits. and mine is already beyond limit but i guess i still can carry on. maybe because of how great LOVE can be? yes, LOVE. call me a stupid stonehead or whatever it is, it doesnt affect me, at all. i shall never regret. regret is never in my dictionary.

she wasnt like this before, her friends even realised it. maybe he still can't see through how great her love for him is. she do fucking & freaking understand his situation, she even did put herself in his shoe and she already got an answer. but he took a long time just to decide, she's still waiting and hoping deep down here. she still so feel his situation.

people have been saying that you know, things doesnt always go your way. but you see, things have NEVER been go MY way.

but no matter what happen, she will still be as strong as ever to continue her life with her normal routine, cause that's so `aYme. yeah, that's her. living her up people, c'mon. what's so difficult in being positive minder? it's all about ur mindset. u got the right to control it, and never be easily influenced, right baby? never. just listen to ur heart, deeply. (:

whatever happens, she'll end it with just a smile.

Posted by `aYmerOn at 2:49 PM