Tuesday, May 20, 2008

That was the ring tone Angel heard. She just woke up from her half-dead.

No one was there. Her husband, Zack, went out to work. Angel was exhausted and will only wake up around 10am every morning. Zack's occupation is as an camp organisation for youth. She read her text, it was from "hubby".

That was Zack's text for his beloved wife. Angel was a little bit disappointed but she had to understand her husband's situation. Angel and Zack had been married for 10 solid years and produced a cute twin son which is 7 years at age. They are lovely. She got up for shower and her breakfast was ready. After she had her meal, she went out with her kids and her maid too.

It was Saturday morning and they all went to the beach. Angel felt lonely without her lovely husband by her side. She was sitting there alone and think if Zack was stating the fact. She had this problem in not trusting her own husband. She had enough with lies but somehow, Zack almost changed her life and that's how they got married happily. While sitting alone, Angel cannot let go of the wonderful memories she had before her marriage.

It was on 17th March few years back. She met her not-so-close friend nearby when she was on her way back home. It was Kelvin. Kelvin was really friendly and they eventually chatted for hours at her void deck. On the same day, Kelvin called Angel. "Hey babe, you know what, i guess i like you." It was so easy for Kelvin to said those. Angel was speechless hearing Kelvin's expression. But Kelvin expanded his sentence in saying that, "in life, i may like more than a person. And i understand that i could only love ONE person." Angel was relieved as she remembered that he said he LIKE her. Not LOVE her. At the same time, Angel thought that Kelvin was one of a kind.

So their relationship get closer. Time flies and Kelvin was in love with Angel. But nobody knows if he is really deep in love with Angel. Angel was very unsure herself. She love him too but she would not want to tell him too early as she was still not sure about her feeling yet. As usual, she does not trust a person easily. Few weeks after, they were getting closer. Confirmation was made that both are already deep in love. How sweet~~

Actions were taken. But unfortunately, within few weeks, Kelvin was somehow had a crush on another sweet innocent girl. Well, of course Angel was totally weak. It was pretty unpredictable after all his sweet talks to her, Kelvin left her. She thought that Kelvin will be her last guy and she will never want to change her life partner ever again. But fate was not on her side. Now whatever Angel does, she was totally way out of her mind. She could not focus on whatever she do. Her mind was always about Kelvin. She was hurt, deeply hurt. Nobody could imagined how her life was after Kelvin left her. She was left ALONE.

She cried all night, although she knew that wont make Kelvin come back to her. But she could not help it. She need to let it out. All night she dreamt, was all about Kelvin. It's been always Kelvin, Kelvin and more Kelvin in her dreams. Somehow, her mind told her that her relationship with Kelvin is not over yet. She believed that Kelvin and her will get back together happily again. She had many pointers in her dream and her daily routines that Kelvin is always by her side.

HOW STRONG HER LOVE WAS TOWARDS KELVIN, GOD!!

Only God understand how deeply she loves Kelvin so much. She almost cant bear the pain she's facing. She's crying and controlling everything, just by herself. She was not angry about Kelvin going after another girl, just disappointed in his immature behaviour. IT HURTS SO MUCH! She tried to stood up strong and face her reality with full confidence and strength. She had no one. No one else. ONLY GOD, as what she believed.

What makes her hurt even more was that, one fortunate afternoon, she was on her way back home and got changed, she bumped onto Kelvin! She was totally speechless and suddenly, she had difficulty in breathing. Once again, only God knows how her feeling was when she saw Kelvin on that particular afternoon. She will always face that kind of feeling whenever she saw Kelvin. But still, she was disappointed in him. Kelvin once brought that girl near her hometown. Angel could not help it, her tears almost roll down her cheeks. But she controlled them. She tried to be even more stronger.

That was not all, when she got changed and on her way to her training exercise, she bumped again with her used-to-be dearest, Kelvin. And once again, she was speechless and had difficulty in breathing. Angel herself wondered why. Was it because she love Kelvin so much that she cant bear losing him forever? Maybe.

She tried her luck and text him to ask if they are still friends or enemy. She was overjoyed when Kelvin said they were friends. Angel thank god enough. It was alright. Now the climax of getting back together, which was few days later, somehow or another, they were on the phone.

My goodness! She was really speechless but she tried her to control her feelings. But at the same time, Zack, came to know about her. It was too sudden that Zack express his love. Of course, Angel could not accept it and even, did not trust it at all as it was too sudden. And of course Angel still do love Kelvin although she knew Kelvin hurt her too much. Her friends thought that Angel must be kidding. Angel has never be so deeply in love with a guy, and a serious one. Angel used to be fooling around and not being serious.

She was too ignorant. She thought that she will lose nothing if she continue to love Kelvin as much as the past. She believe in fate. She will want to experience eveything that God had for her. Although she cried and was weak, she knew that she will still stood strong and face the reality of any ups and downs no matter how.

"Angel, i was really being so stupid. I regretted what i've done. It was so silly of me hanging you there alone and go for an immature girl. I'm really sorry." That was what Kelvin told her few weeks after. But by then, Angel was different.

Later, she thought that Kelvin was not for her. Zack treated her good. She love Kelvin Zack. Oh, that's reality. But once again, not deeply in love. She was just close with Zack. She was strong and does not want to think of any of them anymore. "oh, give me a break!" That's what Angel thought. She think hard, double hard.

She treated equally to both. But Angel could not hide further, she knows that deep in her heart, there was Kelvin. But she realise that she could love Kelvin as much as how deeply she was in the past. She always have the second thought. She tried her very best to get rid of the love between Kelvin and her. It was absolutely hard for her. She used to love Kelvin so much.

Days, weeks, months and years flies.

Everything changed.

Angel stood up with a wide smile. She knew she had to leave her marks behind.

But nobody knows if Kelvin is still deep in there, except her....