Monday, December 1, 2008
nasuha
The connection is really getting on my nerves.
Anyway, today marks the 1st year of friendship, again, but with Ms Nasuha. Yah, she might be only 14 but somehow, a mature girl in a sense. She's the girl who keep nagging at me and made me realise how the world is like, somehow. Those advises woke me up from the fairyland and thus get back to the righteous path.
She understand me most that i'm fickle, and so i won't be able to be consistant in what i do, SOMETIMES. Yes, for example, being a bad girl, NOT to the extend of that wild minahs, and then turned over a new leaf to be one great decent girl, which lasted only for about 2 to 3 weeks.
And then back to the oldies. But again, this girl came and told me what i've done/said to her for the last few months(when i was an extra nice girl), and that's how she made me realise about everything. Although i kept mum about it, but actually i was thinking about it. I think about every consequences that will occur if i change again. I mean, maner pendirian hidup aku. You see, sorry for non-malays.
I know i was doing the right thing, but why am i just not consistant about it. Maybe i depend too much on other people? Or maybe it's just the way how i react after the people around me treated me? Or was it because i am really, really damn fickle? Only God knows.
No matter how irritating this girl can be(sorry for that), in the end, i manage to think wiser. Like everyone knows, just take the good things and ignore the unessential one. So be it, irritating, demanding, annoying, yes she is. But still, she's the most caring human being that God has created, towards me. I really appreciate that, very much.
She's the one who nags at me when i always suffered during my low-immune system days. Hahs. Oh, currently im having a bad flu. She doesn't know that. I bet she'll text me very soon after knowing about it, telling all those typical stuff about taking ur medcine, have a great rest, get back to her once i'm feeling alright, aanndd, why the hell i have such low-immune system. Fuck that one. Hahs. Yeah, some people will just be suffocated with such things, but some will appreciate it especially those who lack of love and care? Oh crap-,-"
She's the one who will let out every single problem to me and i'll be the shoulder-to-cry-on lady. It's not about i'm being good and just listen to what she've got to say. But it's about waking me up again. Whatever problems she had, i've gone through it. So it made me realise how important my parents are. It made me realise, once again, that i should treasure everything i've got and also appreciating for having such parents. Okay, i love my family and should stop whatever stupid things and got to make them proud.
Finally, I would like to take this oppurtunity, although i know that i've been not showing anything to her but i really really appreciate everything that she has done, just for me. Nag at me like an old grandmom whenever im in the wrong path and get a hold of me to get back to the right track. I can't find anymore words to describe how grateful i am for having a friend like you. I apologise for being ignorant at times as i can't just be bothered. I apologise for being rude at times as i thought that i am that way since i was born, but i know! i've to changed it. Yes, definately. &Oh yes, apologise for everything that i've done, and hurt you so much.
It's good to hear that this friendship will go on and on, God willing. That's about it.
