I'm so sleepy but i can't sleep. `Cos mom will think that i'm lazy cos i keep sleeping during the day. But i need sleep as i didn't sleep the whole night. My mind can't even rest. I was tossing around on my bed looking at lil cousin sleeping peacefully. =.= i've yet to do the chores (!!) okay, just let me post this first then.
Anyway, as i've mentioned, this post gonna be on The memories of my momentsin sec sch life. So here it goes. Warning : Quite A HEAVY POST (!)
2004 JYEEAH!! The year that i won't forget. Cos it's the year where i first participated in NDP. Wuhoo~ Of course it was uber fun. Gerek oi~ It's fun because i get to enjoy loads and loads of time. (smile) also, met my new friends. This part is funny-cum-stupid. Before my friend, Ida & i were friends to this girls from Deyi, they actually somehow or another fought. You know, those century where you have this stupid thing, "what stare-stare?!?!" (laughs !!) kedi kan.... We was at our finale position where those Deyi girls were right behind Ida. You know, Ida have this "fierce-cum-arrogant" look. I don't really remember what happened but Ida almost want to hit them when our A.I(assistant Instructor) tried to stop them. I was the oberserver. Side track, i observed a lot during my sec sch life. :)) Ohhs, i so miss my one and only A.I Mr Jeremy Tan. He was the most kindness and caring soul i've ever met so far.
Enough on NDP, 2004 was also the year where i slacked a lot in my studies. Imagine you got teachers who can't just get along with you for all subjects (?!) Yeah ! I suffered a lot. HAHS. But i find it stupid to regret everything now. My math teacher was such a pain! He was a one soft spoken guy but also VERY sarcastic that every student HATES HIM to the core. So whenever it was math lesson, some of friends and i will skip his lesson and just wonder about somewhere else. Furthermore, our class was at the needle work room because of the special case boy who sits on his wheelchair which i thought i should pity him but NO! He's another annoying and such a pain too. He's arrogant and full of craps. He keeps threathening people and send virus. He's really sick!
So, as i was saying, not only Math lesson, but also English. OMG! It was one of a kind. Pupils can easily bully her(teacher). She don't even care AT ALL !! freaking ignorant huh. So we don't even care too. Skipped almost every lessons, came in to class late for some subjects. Smoking. Crapping. Joking. Hanging around with some unknown people at void deck after school. Okay, that was PAST. Later, got lectured by teacher and stuff. As i've mentioned, i was an observer through out, (winks) the only teacher who care for my friends and i was Mdm Jamilah. FOR REAL, people. OHhs, miss her damn much.
2005 It was somehow similar as the previous year. As in slacked in studies. Who would even wanna care when you don't have any attention that you need at your very age. Your mindset was still as low as ever. =p Slacked too much, doing all those badSTUPID stuff in the toilet till that we keep visiting our vice-pricipal's office. It was real stupid i admit. (laughs) funny too!! All those countless BETA form to fill in. [That was why i'm so good in filling job application form nowadays (?)] HAHS. crap siols. k back to the topic. Yahh, so it's been the same, till that we can make friends with our own O.M(operating manager) and our Discipline Master. Ohhs! i miss my Discipline Master(Mr Chew). First, he's hot. Next he's super duper understanding, motivational, funny, humble. You name it, all those good stuff. But what can i say, MOE love him more. HAHS. nvm.
2006 WOW. Sec 3 already. Very fast huh. &guess what, i turned over a new leaf. i quited all those bad stuff. Except for coming in late for lessons. It's hard, i mean, being punctual for lessons. Hoho. But i began to LOVE math. You know why, cos i got a great and wonderful math teacher who was really understanding, caring etc. The way she taught us, WOAH!!! superb okayy!! So yah, i told myself to start focusing in my studies, although i thought it was a lil bit late cos i wasn't being pay attention during the basics in my first & second year in sec sch. But i got help from teachers and it somehow help me a lot.
Not only that! I became way more responsible, and erm, a lil bit of discipline. JYEAH! :) cos i was trained as one in my CCA. 2006, it was when i was appointed officially to work with my partner, Sufi and we was the Band Leader. Yes, i was from Band. :DD It was my CCA which actually change me over. I was trained, i was observed, i was motivated, etc. And there, i have to be the role model for the whole lot of my band members. Then it was my turn to observe them, trained them, taught them, disciplined them, motivate them. Everything ! till that i treated BLCB as my 2nd family. It was because of BLCB, i came to school. It was because of BLCB, i started to settle down to concentrate on studies(although it was the MOST HARDEST THING THAT I COULD EVER DO). I learned freaking lots of stuff being in BLCB. and of course, i love my members so much that i wouldn't want them to be out of hand and off haywire. I never show it all out to them though. I approched privately to those who are in need. Those who can't tolerate our training, poor in combining or whatsoever. No one ever know, i bet even my music director wasn't aware of that. Maybe she was aware that i was somehow one helpful girl(at least) :))
2007 GCE N-LEVELs !! HAHA. Yes, i told myself yet again to study more, but i just couldn't. The interest on studies in myself was really in poor conduct. I do still skipped lessons though. NOT ALL of course. i can't even bear to. But at times, when i need some peace, i would just get out of the class and sit by the staircase. at times, camwhore. =p Mom even got me a private tutor. But the result wasn't much of a change. Only my math improve. Though i thought i couldnt make it cos i kept sleeping in math lesson. What do u expect, math lessons are always long hours and even the last subject of the day. By the time, i was exhausted. For 3 periods, i'll sleep the first two period, and woke up during the last period. i DONT do this everytime though (of cos i wouldnt dare to). Only when it comes to a new topic. My teacher will took that first 2 period just for the introduction. Boriiiing. The rest, you wouldn't wanna know. BUT! i was still a good girl. FOOK! i am already one :) self-proclaimed it is :DD Ohhs! there were changes. yes changes in my group of friend. slowly and steadily, we actually was apart from each other. There were too much of misunderstandings happening around.
2008 Ohhs! Finally, my last year in that sch. =.= the year where i still have not change. cos i still slept in class for some dull lessons. I disappoint 2 teachers too :( Mr Adrian Tay with my poor result for chemistry. and Ms Chua Ching for my poor attitude. She was real stunned and i was sorry. :( &I must say there was quite a problem on friendship in this very year. The only one who sticked with me was Chika & Erah. Yes, we clicked very well. i treasured them. What about my other friends? Well, we do hang about, but not as close as we were. Especially my so-called "a-friend-throughout-the-year". Yes, she was with me since 2004. The very first year of my sec sch life. I love her very much. Yes. But somehow, there was this third party. No, i don't blame anyone, cos i don't even have the right to do so. So, i gave it a thought. I thought i might did something wrong to her that hurts her.
So as usual, i apologise in a joking manner, but i mean it. I dunno if she take it seriously. cos i was being lame at that point of time. i was crapping about. But later part of it, i somehow got to know from this very third party who claimed she was even more closer to my this so-called "a-friend-throughout-the-year" than me. She was the one who made her stop smoking, she was the one who was always there for her whenever she's in need. She's one the one who pour love and care to her, UNLIKE ME. So, it made it sounds like I'M A VERY POOR GIRLFRIEND. I don't mind that, u know why, cos i dont give any fuck damn shit about whatever has happened. What i meant was, i dont even care about this girl. What i care was, my so-called "a-friend-throughout-the-year".
I was utterly disappointed when i heard that my this so-called "a-friend-throughout-the-year" was actually SUSPECTING ME BETRAYING HER (?!) will u ever wanna imagine that? your very own friend okay. HAHS. wow. but still, i kept it cool. cos there's this incident where i was included in their case. So i was called up by my DM. She was investigating or whatever she was doing at that point of time. I was obviously clueless. Why? because i was involved in a sec 4E case (?!) i was like WWWHHATT THE FREAKING HELL WAS THAT ALL ABOUT ????
For real, i know NOTHING. okay, ZERO! about it. i cant even bother to remember what was the case really about but this third party was asking me if i were the one who told our DM that she and my so-called "a-friend-throughout-the-year" was being very close. OH MY GOSH! like as if i would even wanna care?!! about the freaking life?who could even imagine that one small lil thing can be a big deal to a person. DONT YOU FIND IT STUPID?? very. yes. superb.
I dont even wanna care back then, cos that friend of mine, already have her ways. she's happier than before when she was with me. it was somehow a big impact to me. NOT about that third party, but of my this very friend, whom MAYBE really thought that i betrayed her. WOW. Actually, i just couldn't understand the whole story myself. It is somehow complicated. &that was why i cant even bother and just be ignorant. To me, this third party LOVES to make a small thing to a big thing. get it? hahs. oh well, bear with it. humans.. even the past, rake it up all yet again. it somehow looks stupid. freaking stupid.
so i just played my role. and i wasnt affected. i let it pass. i said, it was fated. fated to lose such a friend whom i treasured at the beginning but everything went apart. YES, IT WAS FATED. EVERYTHING. &there goes my last year in school. like i've metioned, this wasn't all in my sec sch. this is not even half of those moments that i've went through. some things should be kept low i guess. so thats it, my memories.
okay, back to square one. ohh chores, here i come~
