Friday, February 13, 2009

feeling random

first of all, i miss babyboi. urhg!

I've no idea why do i feel something's not right, or maybe i'm just feeling empty, thus i'm so weak right now. Almost all my Saturdays are gone. My weekends are already gone for so long, but i stated this because it was spent on lessons.


Stupidity. I thought that studying is simply a waste of time, comparing enjoying with your loved ones like friends or family. Like duh! it was a freaking stupid mindset, i know. What can i say, parents sacrificed too much. I know i've been such a disappoinment.

In such a state, i've to sacrificed almost everything just to get back what they are hoping for. Too much of my nonsence that they've tolerated so far. Although they might had enough of me, they are simply strong enough to face reality, unlike some people, some IMMATURE people.

Sometimes, i know i was doing the wrong things, but somehow i wasn't strong enough to defeat the devils, eventhough i was brought up so well. But end up, it's still up to me to decide though. `Cos they knew they can never force me to do things which i don't want to. Caring souls have been advising me here &there, it lasted for few days or weeks.

Oh, the world ain't perfect, similarly goes to each and every soul.
Some people simply loves judging others, accusing others, being such a BIG FUCK KPO or even create untrue stories.


So random. I'm so afraid that all the good things might end once again. Well, that's life isn't it. Meeting different people through out your life, overcome such people who pretends, omg.

I think it's time to stop being childish, in a way.



Posted by `aYmerOn at 1:32 PM